Last night, I had a terrible nightmare. It involve 3 parties again. The similar dream I had when im still with this girl and the dream came true which resulting in breaks up. This nightmare is about her being together with that guy. Will it happen? who knows..
Hoping today I will be able to control myself when we go to khakabo as a group outing.
Had a walk around boon keng with her during the afternoon. I saw the watsapp msg bewtween her and guy.
"Will you still come over my house when the storm is over?"
Hoping to forget the incident and repeat it again? Fk it man. Using her weakness which is her kindness to his own advantage??
Fortunately, she rejected the request made from that guy. So i hope she really did learn her lesson. Life has many obstacle, we need to overcome and prevent it.
Sadly, i reached my limit at 8.42pm and start to feel terrible. I wish I could just release all my anger towards him. But its all in the past. Revenging will not change the past, it is a fact. All I could do now is give in and swallow my anger. Hope today will not have anymore nightmare which will affect tomorrow.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Its been a long long time... 26th November 2011
26th November 2011 will not exist in my calender. My first time having many different kind of emotion mixing together. Anger, sadness, disappointment, happiness and forgiveness. After hearing what had happen, I do not how to react to it.
Should I be angry about it? Because this guy did this kind of thing to the girl I love?
Should I be sad and disappointed about it? Because she promised me not to anyhow do things like physical contact with other guys, going to other people house alone. But she never do it and forgotten about those promise.
Should i be forgiving about it? Because I know one day, this kind of thing will happen. Its just a sooner or later for it to happen. Given by her mischievous character, she just die die cannot stand still or not doing anything. So... End up, she want to "PLAY" and went tickling the guy without consequences.
Should I be happy about it? Because instead of going his house, they will meet outside after this incident and she is safe and sound now?
I really dont know what to do about it. My killing intent towards that guy is getting stronger. I hope I will be able to control it till the day of my death.
I hope this will be a very valuable lesson for her and learn her own mistakes. But she still want to go according her FAIRNESS rule. I hope she really mean it when she promised not to do it again....
Should I be angry about it? Because this guy did this kind of thing to the girl I love?
Should I be sad and disappointed about it? Because she promised me not to anyhow do things like physical contact with other guys, going to other people house alone. But she never do it and forgotten about those promise.
Should i be forgiving about it? Because I know one day, this kind of thing will happen. Its just a sooner or later for it to happen. Given by her mischievous character, she just die die cannot stand still or not doing anything. So... End up, she want to "PLAY" and went tickling the guy without consequences.
Should I be happy about it? Because instead of going his house, they will meet outside after this incident and she is safe and sound now?
I really dont know what to do about it. My killing intent towards that guy is getting stronger. I hope I will be able to control it till the day of my death.
I hope this will be a very valuable lesson for her and learn her own mistakes. But she still want to go according her FAIRNESS rule. I hope she really mean it when she promised not to do it again....
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